My mistake.

Is December again, Christmas is around the corner.

And also going 2014 soon.

Alot of things going throught my mind.

Alot of mistake i have made. 

And i had made up my mind to stop drinking.

This 2 month too much thing had happen.

The one that hurt most is my Boyfriend.

I have hurt him alot.

And he is leaving me now. 

I bet there is nothing i could do to salvage.

I love this man.

I feel that i lost everything, but i cant fall.

It time to get on track to work le.

I hate myself so much. I cant make him stay.

I miss him now. 

sighs.

2 day more to our anniversary.

1 week more to Christmas.

Please be my present for Christmas.

I learn alot of thing throughout. i see what my sister did.

And im a shame of myself. I saw myself doing nonsense and being stubborn.

My mistake, this consequences.

suck thumb.

 

想你的夜。

She has secrets you'll never know or understand,
she appears so strong on the outside,
but on the inside her world Is spinning upside down.
shes smiling and standing tall to the outta world,
shes crying and breaking down in her inner world.
She appears so happy to her mates,
but alone, she shares her tears with her pillow.
She Knows Not to Get Her Hopes Up,
as they always come crashing down.
Shes heard it all before & felt it all.
Shes experienced more then her fair share.
1 Touch, & she'll flinch
1 Harsh, Word & she'll cry
1 Bad Moment, & she'll break down
She Trusts No one, because the people she has, hurt her & leave her to pick up the pieces
she believes No one, because the people she has, lie & betray her.
So for now she'll keep to herself & pretend everything is fine, when everything is wrong
I know this girl, because this girl,
Is Me.

TO , (the only one I trust)

You are the only one I trust. "trust no one, except you".

Thanks for being the the past month holding me.

我很舍不得，可是我看我也没有办法。

我不想在看你烦恼， 难过。

我骗过你，重那时候起，我根本没资格拥有你。

谢谢你给的机会。 我真的有去珍惜，而表现给你看，

你有看到吗？有吗？ 那为什么今天你不要给我机会解释。

我天天都做工，放工就陪你。

还记得昨晚我说我要嫁给你吗？

我，重来没有跟人说过，可见我有多么爱你，需要你。

你知道现在我的心有多痛吗？ 到家到现在，我眼泪没停过。

我很想很想你。你知道吗？

我的心真的很痛。

而我也什么都不能做。剩下连做的，就是祝福你。

可能你没机会看到，城今没听我说过。

可是你是我一生最爱的男人。

才短短的几个月，你做到了。

你让我真的知道什么叫爱。也因为，所以我爱你，

我无法在看着你为我担心，伤心，难过。

你要加油。好吗？谢谢你。你给了我最美好的回忆。

我爱你。

❥明明就

                            

明明就，可以一个人过，却好想有一个人陪我过。

明明就，不开心，却一直告诉别人我没事。

明明就，不喜欢说话，却一直说个不停，好像怕自己停下后又会胡思乱想。

明明就，不想笑，却哈哈大笑，好像为了掩饰自己的心事。

明明就，没有忘记，却能当作好像什么也没有发生过。

明明就，什么都知道，却装作什么也不知道。

明明就，知道不可能，却每天好像在期待些什么。

明明就，知道那些是巧合，却一直告诉自己是缘分。

明明就，好想知道那么多，却没勇气知道。

明明就，什么事也没发生，却自己想那么多。

明明就，已经过了那么久，却一直把回忆当成昨天发生一样地复习着。

明明就，这世界那么多人，却眼里就只有你。




明明就，很想相信你，却不敢相信自己。

明明就，知道你对我很好，却这样对你。

明明就，不是一个人，却感觉每天好像一个人面对这世界，那么的累。

明明就，很累很累，却还是那么坚持，自己也不知道自己在坚持什么。



我，明明就，什么也不是，却因为你，让我知道我不是一个人。

A fucking brand new year.

HAPPINESS

A great new year to all.

Shake life is over.

I just wish for happiness this year.

Everything seems fine.

Except for my day job. Due to what i have been doing

during the night.

 

That's me for 2013.

No longer working at HOD

(House Of Drinker)

As is also close down already. But still i have to say

This place brings alot of memories for me.

And currently working at Club imperial

@ Jin besar.

Is quite nice there but i still have to cope.

Working time. Yeah.
Im currently at some internet cafe at parklane call home ground.
And i seriously wanna hit myself on the wall as is SUPER laggy.
I think i shud just let the photo to speak for me.

 

THE PEOPLE I CANT AFFORD TO LOOSE.

 

They bring alot of laughter into my life.

Thanks so so so so much.

I will blog again real soon.

I fucking cant stand the lag-ness

Hereby. ah nam.

Do RIP.

Treasure your love one.

I'm back to blogging again. Using the new iPad . How good if there

is a real keyboard in front of me.

Currently, I'm still working at seiko at vivo.

Never will I thought I will work there for so long.

And for the last three month have been working at HOD

A pub at keong siak rd. I swear, is f***ing tiring.

This is the recently me.

Halloween just past, awaiting for Christmas to arrive now.

I love Christmas!

After half a year, I'm out from prison.

A lot of people change those I use to be close

No longer really contact them.

Some even hard to say hi bye.

Know new friend, hang out with different people.

Is kind of sad actually.

For my stress level is to the max.

All I need is really sleep.

For my love life.

A lot of thing happen for the past few month.

Is not really what I wanted and is sad to say everything.

Is so dramatic.

Good times and bad time of cause there is.

But I don't know why. I can't cope it anymore.

I just want my prince to give me what I want just like in the 

Fairy tale. Well, I know is impossible. But I envy others.

Cause they are happily ever after now.

Sighs.

I need to work hard. Next month I'm not buying anymore

Fake nails. I wanna do manicure so badly.

Gelish nail looks so better on me.

Okays . That's my next month target.

For now. I wanna use my useful time enjoying myself at

At home. Not letting anyone to disturb me. 

Now I got a new iPad. I guess I can start to blog more again.

Chaos ~

♥ Lovey Dovey.

Back to blog, Firstly too much think happen pass few month.
So sorry for not blogging for so long.
Secondly, what past already past,
So i wun mentiopn much too,
Thirdly, Im back to blog. So will post more photo and update ALOT of thing.
Currently now working for City Chain.
And just got transfer out to vivo Seiko, Also under city chain.
Meet alot of people, Cute one, Funny one, Lazy one.
Dont want to mention any name here. HAHAHS.
So far, they are really good. And i have been working for 2 months
already. Cheers.

Currently daily life, favourite pass time still.
SING. But i found something that i really like. 
Which is playing DARTS! 
i also got my own darts set. Guess what? Is hello kitty set.
Kinda disssapointed cause somehow is hard to throw.
If not i think i can throw even BETTER!

Next up, im apply for school at PSB. And still waiting.
Really wanna study and upgrade myself.
Has been long since i study.
Miss school life, miss being a student seriously.

This month i wanna sign package for my nails. Only this can make me
HAPPY! (Crazy or what) lol.
And i think is time for me to get a
 necklace or bracelet for myself.
So i must work hard really hard. And i mean really really HARD.

Love life. Has been a mess.
One word to describe.
SORROW.
BABY, i really really cant loose you. i really cant.
But sometime, word dont come easy to me.
Has been attitude everyone for the past few day.
I am really sorry. I really cant control.
How much i need you, nobody know.
Only blog understand.

Alright, stop stop.
Life still have to move on.
Time now 1.30 am and im on mc tomorrow.
Due to food posioning.
Damn ass, i still got reporting tomorrow.
Yes, i mean reporting. Nah, you not reading it wrong.

Gonna sleep soon. Photo has uploaded. This is how i look like now.
Fat right, okays. I know.
I need to do a reseach on diet this few days and share
with all my pals. No worries(:
I will upload more and update myself more.
Maybe tomorrow or the day after.
NO PROMISE !~
Alright, shall end here now.
Goodnight world, Sweetdream.
Sayang tier, Rindu tier.

tatas~~



❥I make it thru

Sorry world. Has been like month I never touched my blog.

Alot of thing need to be update. Things had change and stuff. From a happy marriage to a broken family.

From a girl who need him as much as anything else and now she can stand up and decide things for herself.

As you can see my last post, was as sweet than anyone else.

But it has become a memories to all of us. Wondering where should I actually start now. Start from my marriage, hmmm. Well. It has been tough for me last few month. Quarrel between my... Should i it like this. Erm (ex)mother-in-law and (ex)husband.
How important am I is in the house.

Ho cruel he is. Doesn't wanna mention too. As for now im just waiting for the letter that he wanted to give me for so long. Let bygone be bygone. I guess I really happy now too. I'm home for about 2 month already

. Getting use of everything. Thanks to all my friend who was there for me.

Really a big thanks to all of you. No matter what, you all just keep me accompanied.

One more to thanks. Specially for you. THANKS !

You are just there no matter what. When i break down crying you will be there.

Even when im having moodswing, you just stand there and let me scold.

Xie xie ni.
Recently, working for my biao jie at her office. Office hour. Monday to Friday 9 to 6. Althought is like ****ing bored. But the timing just end at the right time. Drinking here and there. Will be uploading photo with all my sayang. Sorry, as im inthe office right now unable to upload all or you can just look thru my fackbook which is on the side. Thanks pal. Yup, will be updating more offer and catch up with you guy. Kindly help me click on my nuffnang ads too. I love all of you ! I swear !